Sunday, 29 December 2013

Oh right, what I’m currently doing

Okay, so last post from me for a while – what am I currently doing?  Apart from cursing out my computer (stupid Chrome is eating all my CPU) I’m “trying” once again for weightloss/health.
It should be so easy.
I want to lose weight and I know exactly what I need to do to lose weight.  So why isn’t it working?  Why am I finding it so hard?  Why can’t I get back to the way I used to be?  : (

Immediate goals/activities:
  1. Sit-ups once again.  I went clothes shopping for clothes in October and bought lots of lovely new shirts/tops for work.  I have only worn half of them, because since I stopped doing sit-ups, my gut has starting sticking out again and all my clothes hang badly on me – it’s all in the belly! L
  2. Drinking lots of water – not soft drinks (fizzy drinks).  Helps with the salt bloating thing right?
  3. When I’m not at my mother’s – go for a half hour walk every day: who knows when I’ll get the chance to go when I’m stuck at ma’s?
  4. Food diary & measuring food again – just to get into the habit.  I can’t calorie count that well without a computer and the internet because I haven’t got a smartphone, so I’m stuck waiting til I can get onto a computer to enter everything onto MFP.  But it’ll be a good activity to try and see how much my portions and serves have become unrealistic
That’s it for now.
Once again,
Sporadically yours,


Sunday, 22 December 2013

New habit November – part 2

Eating?  Food?  Urgh…. For sure the hardest part about this. 

I hate that I get into the swing of weighing/logging food, then I just don’t do it once...  Start again four to five days later.  Maintain for a week?  Ten days?   Four to five days later, I start again.  Urgh!

There was one week in there where I ate junk food everynight.  And I mean junk food.  Macca’s and Hungry Jacks – sometimes on the same night.  (Sorry! Regional slang:  Macca’s is McDonald’s.  Hungry Jacks is I think Burger King?).  Two burgers, Large Fries – sometimes two (because I got one from each place), 30+ chicken nuggets, icecream.   Every night.  For a week.  I don’t know WHAT possessed me!  I just wanted (I say: wanted, but without any really sense of desperation to it.  Not an ‘I WANT!’ But more an ‘I want because I don’t care right now’) junk food.

But, well, it seems I’m good now.  I don’t want and haven’t wanted for about 3 weeks now.  And I don’t think I do want again anytime soon.  For starters, the cost.  So. Much. Money. . . And secondly, why?  Why should I continue to eat food that’s bad for me?  I have a freezer that’s overflowing with food that I’ve precooked and portion.  Why the frell am I not eating it? 

The one thing I’ve been doing well over this entire two months is breakfast.  I’ve been making sure I have a ‘healthy’ (relatively speaking), filling, nutritious breakfast.  It’s a bit of an extension to the breakfast I ate while I was in highschool.  My ma and I used to have massive fights because I struggled (and still do) to eat breakfast first thing in the morning.  Yoghurt was about all I could handle.  Ma always used to claim that ‘my stomach needed something to chew on’ and that yoghurt wasn’t enough.  So to appease her, I used to throw a handful or two of quick cook oats into my yoghurt,  claiming that ‘they’ll expand in my stomach as they digest’      O_O     Well, it any case, that seemed to be enough for ma, especially as in year 11 and 12, because we started at 8am, the school canteen opened from 7.30 and sold breakfast.  So I had a bacon and egg roll with cheese, and a white coffee with two sugars.  Every morning.  Tsk!  But I digress…

I decided I’d do the yoghurt-and-oats thing again, seeing as it’s heading into summer so hot porridge is out of the question.

Turns out, this is quite a craze on pinterest and ‘Mama-craft-and-cooking’ blogs at the moment.  I’m talking of course about: Overnight Oats

*shrugs*  Who knew that something I used to do in highschool just to shut ma up would turn into a global sensation?  I especially love reading comments and reactions by people on the blogs who’ve posted recipes for overnight oats:  “can I substitute this?”, “my child won’t eat that, could I use this?”, “Would it still work if I omitted this?”  “I’m going to follow your recipe, but change A, B and G to 1, 2, and 5”.   Lmao!! YES!! Of course it will still work! J  Just adjust and adapt to what you have on hand.  Eg: the bananas I forgot I had.  I cooked up some pumpkin and tried a ‘spiced/sweet pumpkin puree’ mix (I guess I was trying for a “pumpkin pie” type sensation – something that is not traditional here in Aus.).   It didn’t win me over.  But, I bought heaps of 1kg tubs of flavoured yoghurt on clearance and have been working my way through them.

ETA – I can’t even remember where I was going with this post, so I’m going to end it here.

Saturday, 21 December 2013

New Habit November – part 1

So… I started writing this at the end of October 2013...

My goodness! Has it really been two months already?  It can’t be….

Ooops!  That’s not good….  So, catch up time.  (By the way this turned into a really long post (3+ pages!) so I’ve decided to split it up.  Read on for part 1….)

In the last two months, some good, some bad.  For the most part, the status quo has been maintained.   What I was doing before is the same as I am now.  :-S

1.        September I set myself the challenge of doing sit-ups every day.  I didn’t make it to 600… I think I got to 436.  Still, I think I did pretty alright with that, especially considering I have kept on going and I am still doing sit-ups most days.  I am now up to 60 at one time.  I have to stop for a day or two sometimes though because I think I am starting to bruise my tail bone.  I think I need to get a thicker yoga mat thing.   The one I’m using is fairly thin, and given I have a concrete floor, it’s just not giving enough padding.  I need to find a really cushy one, not just a non-slip type rubber mat.

2.       I have picked up my swimming again!! The local pool opened up back in September so I have been a few times since then.  I also organised to get a key for the pool attached to my workplace complex.  There are a few community groups/swim clubs that use it too though, so trying to find a time that doesn’t clash with them is proving tricky.  Especially after work.  It’s an open-air/outdoor pool so in theory I can swim anytime I want.  It’s just creepy to stay after 6 and swim on my own.  And I’m not really going to go to work on the weekend just so I can swim for 50 minutes. 

Before work doesn’t quite work either, because there isn’t a proper shower/change room.  Just a single shower head for a rinse in the doorway to the changing room.  As in, you want to shower (rinse)?  Then you have to do it in full view of everyone else including those still poolside.  Eeep!  I guess it’s to make it a quick process seeing as there are many community groups that use it and it needs to be available for quick change.  No girls spending half an hour under the shower so they can wash their hair.  o_O  And then, the actual change room is in the style as it exists in many public pools around the world – an open room with benches and hooks but no individual cubicles.

Speaking of cubicles.  There’s no toilet there either.   So… before work swimming?  Nuh-uh!

3.       Another something that I have been doing is trying to go for a walk everyday.  I started with the intention of just walking for 20 minutes a day, but that’s extended somewhat to 30 minutes a day.  20 minutes just didn’t feel long enough.  Ironically, I picked 20 minutes because I don’t “have any spare time”.  Is that irony?  I don’t know if it is.  Hmm…

It was back in the beginning of October and we had a long weekend, where I had spent practically the entire weekend inside, on my arse. *throws hands in exasperation* Pah!  *walks over to where hands landed and crouches down to get them again mama-cat style*Ah!  That’s better!  (P.S.  Learnt to type with my nose!).  I got so mad at myself for doing that, that I decided at the very least, I should have the time to walk for 20 minutes.  Everyone has time for 20 minutes!

I walked pretty consistently for a week and a half 20 minutes everyday.  Most times it turned to longer than 20 minutes, because of having to wait to cross the train track or the road.  But the distance was fairly consistent: 2.2km (1.37mi) But then, of course, something happened to make me get back off track.  I was sick for a few days and that threw all plans – exercise and eating out the window.  And I’ve been really slow to bring it back.  L

4.       I’m working on a new habit for November.

ETA: I don’t even remember now what that habit was meant to be, unless it was to eat breakfast everyday?

Thursday, 19 December 2013

Whoa... long time, no action, right?

I know exactly what happened.  I stopped blogging for a while there.  Stopped reading blogs too.  I just became overwhelmed I think with end of year stuff.  And laziness.  Oh so Lazy.

And of course, I stopped caring about my food diary and exercise.  Not all the way though.  I did keep to something during October.  But then I was sick for a day or two and then it all slid away from me again.  *sigh*  Oh well, keep trying, keep striding, I’ve got to keep on moving.

I did regain weight, but not a whole heap.  I’ve been maintaining pretty steadily at 103-104kg for those last three months. 

I’ve also got a post that I started writing in the beginning of November – a very long one that I decided to split into two posts.  Listen, it might not be of much relevant now, but I still want to post it, because it outlines what I was doing in October, health/fitness wise.
Other than that, I’m going to restart/retry a food diary and exercise plans and etc.  For the first little bit, at least the next month, it’s going to be sporadic as I travel back and forth between my ma’s house, where I have no freedom to do anything (like leave for a walk, eat foods I chose, use the internet) and then my own place, where I’m going to get a few days to cram in shopping, cleaning, unpacking, catching up with friends, work responsibilities, before I have to go back to my mum for another 3-5 days. 

I’m going to HATE this summer. 

In sporadic posting, at least until the end of January,


Saturday, 31 August 2013

A monthly challenge…?

So, I haven’t come up with a monthly challenge for a while. 

I like the idea of a monthly challenge because I think it allows me to have a measurable goal.  Something achievable that I will help to build in a new challenge.  Usually I’ve made these monthly challenges something fitness related.

I was thinking some more about the fact that I’ve lost 7kg (15.4lb) in the last two months.  And Marion ( asked me if my clothes were fitting any differently. 

Well, they haven’t.  They don’t feel looser yet.  The waist band of my pants (slacks/trousers/insert-other-regional-variation-here) still sit very snugly.  Everything I wear is elasticated waist, because at least *that* has a little give. 

Now, as I was sitting around, pondering some more on this, I was trying to work out why there seemed to be no change.  Was it because:
a)      My current clothing size was probably on the side of too small and now they are fitting closer to what they should, or,
b)      I carry most of my weight on my belly and the weightloss hasn’t been centered there, so there has been no change in the fit of my clothes?

Rather than just sit around waiting for more weight to come off before my clothes started to feel looser, I figured there was probably something I could do about it.

Sit-up and take notice, because I’m about to reveal my September Challenge…




You ready?




Are you suuuuuuure?




Sure you’re sure?






I am going to do 600 Sit-Ups in September!!

Oh, you already worked that one out?  Oh.  I guess you don’t want to hear the details then?  Oh *shrugs* that’s cool then.  I’ll just be… over here…

Heehee, I jest, I jest! 

I really am going to attempt 600 sit-ups in September.

Why?  Well, because I like sit-ups!  Sit-ups have always been my ‘go-to’ exercise.  Because I do carry excess weight on my stomach, sit-ups are something that I find helps with that. 

Now, I know, that you can’t spot reduce.  Doing a thousand sit-ups will not magically make my stomach/gut area flat and streamlined.  I’m not going to create muscles that will spend their entire existence burning away my stomach fat.  And etc.

And yet, I find doing sit-ups does help.  If I do sit-ups regularly (daily) then, after a few days (approx. 5) I find that my stomach does sit flatter.  Some where on the interwebs (that I can’t find now) I think I read that although you can’t spot reduce, what does end up happening, is the ab muscles do build to a certain extent and they become stronger and are able to pull in the excess skin and fat.  Thus, this gives the appearance of flatter abs/spot reducing.

Whatever.  I enjoy sit-ups.  In high school, I used to do 100 a night.  And if there ever was an event coming up where I wanted to look my best and not have to worry about a sticking out gut, then I turned to sit-ups.  They truly are my go-to exercise, if I feel I want/need to be doing something fitness wise.

Now, obviously 600 sit-ups is a lot.  At the moment I can do 15 sit-ups.  By the 12th, I’m feeling it and have to push for the 13th, 14th and 15th ones.  Now you clever readers know your maths and realise that 15 x 30 days is ≠ 600 sit-ups.  This is indeed true, your maths knowledge has not failed you.  : )  So of course, given that if I stick to just 15 sit-ups per day, I will only reach 450 sit-ups, I will obviously need to do some more!  I feel that as I continue to do sit-ups and my muscles develop, I should be able to start increasing the amount of sit-ups I do.  I’m thinking every 3 days?

I think I worked out a gradual increase of every three days would go something like this:
15 – 16 – 18 – 20 – 21 – 22 – 24 – 25 – 27 - 30

So, the benefit to doing this is two-fold.  One, I will reach my target of 600 sit-ups and two, I’ll build up a daily habit that is good for me.  Well, actually three, I’ll be starting some form of exercise.  Guess it beats just sitting around on my arse.  Okay, that’s enough, I promise! :)

I’ll be keeping a record of my progress on the ‘Monthly Challenge’ page.  Might not update daily, but it will be accurate.  Feel free to check it out.

Wednesday, 28 August 2013

There has got to be a better way...

On Sunday, I went grocery shopping.  My least favourite domestic chore.  Give me a room full of ironing instead.  A garden full of weeds.  A sink of dishes, or a clogged drain, or cobwebs, or a tank of scorpions, or dunking my hands in boiling oil or….  Sorry, got carried away there, didn’t I? :D 

(By the way, I take forever to get to the point in this post, so if you just want to read the “message” I got out of this experience, scroll down until you get to the purple writing)(but I’d be honoured if you read through the whole thing).

I find grocery shopping to be absolutely the most stressful task ever (yes, English teachers, I am hyperbolising).  I don’t know what it is, but it just doesn’t work for me.  I know the rules/strategies to make it smoother, and yet, NO.
·         I create a meal plan – for my dinners and lunches mainly.  I know my breakfast is going to be porridge or cereal. 
·         I shop my pantry & freezer first – what have I got that needs to be used up?
·         I scour the catalogues to see what’s on special
·         I write a list to buy just the things I need
·         I include on my shopping list what I’m making for meals in the week so I’m less likely to impulse buy.  (if it was on special and I wanted it, it would have been in the catalogue and made it onto my list already).  So when I'm looking at an aisle, and wondering why I've picked up an item, I check with my meal plan to see if I can aford or need to fit in the deviation.
·         I shop late in the day when there are less people around and more manager’s specials
·         I shop the perimeter of the store and stay out of the aisles when I can
·         I don’t shop hungry – I make sure I have eaten before I go.

I live on my own: I cook for one person.  I go shopping everyweek.  AND YET IT STILL TAKES ME OVER AN HOUR EACH TIME!!  This has always been a point of contention for me.  It takes me AN HOUR to shop for one person.  Each week!!  Argh!!  Exclamation points to make my feelings known!!

So, that’s enough backstory, right?  Sunday, grocery shopping, went with a list & meal plan.  

Now, I’m currently sitting a delicate balance between eating good healthy food and sticking to a budget.  I know lately that my shops have taken a little longer, because in the fresh produce section, I’m picking everything up, weighing it, then calculating the cost.  I keep a running total on my hand, so much so that by the end of my trip I look like this guy:
Well, my hand does anyway! I probably look a little odd for it, I'll be the first to admit.

I possibly also emanate a little whiff of ‘nutter’ by muttering to myself my sums.  $43-50, $43-50, 43-50, and then that’s $1.20, so I’m going to round that up to $1.50. 43-50 plus $1.50, 43-50 plus $1.50, that’s going to be ..... 45! 45,45,45,45.45,45...  All while walking back to my trolley and etc.

Sunday’s shop proved to be long and stressful as I was conscious of trying to stay within my budget (went over by $25).  By 5:40pm - mentally - I was done.  That was it.  I was tired and cranky and stressed and worried about getting home and cooking dinner and preparing lunch for Monday and still getting some reports finished for work the next day and ... ! I was over it.

Fifteen more minutes and I was finally in the last aisle.  And I admit, I was swayed by the ice-cream fridge as I walked past it.  Individual ice-cream cups of 200ml (6-7 oz? fl. oz?) were half price and only $1 each.  Bargain!  I could buy some to stock up and they could sit in my freezer and I could eat them in pre-decided portion amounts!  What could be neater?! (ß You can see where this is going right? Delusion City!!).  I’d been debating getting ice-cream anyway and at that price, who was I to resist?  (Mind you, I must have looked nuttier again as I got them, because the flavours I like best were at the very back of the top shelf.  Now, I’m tall, but I still had to stretch right up and then jump to get them.  I even had to use the tray they sit in to roll the very back ones forward.  I was determined to get that ice-cream!)  Now, as I walked back and forth with them, I started a conversation in my head. 


I’m going to put the voice of ‘my conscience’ – my Jiminy Cricket as it were – in blue, to distinguish between the two sides of my conversation.

As I looked at the ice-cream, I said to myself: I want ice-cream. 

But then just as quickly, I asked myself do you really? Why? Why do you want ice-cream? The weather’s not even that warm.

I know, but I just want ice-cream.

But why?

I want something comforting.
I feel stressed and anxious and I want to feel better.

So... you don’t really want ice-cream do you?

… No, I just want something to make me feel better.

Is ice-cream going to be it?

Ice-cream will make me feel better

. . . 

No; it won’t. 
I’ll just feel like I’ve eaten ice-cream, but I won’t feel any better.  I’ll feel sick from having had too much sugar and I’ll still feel anxious and stressed about work tomorrow, but I won’t feel better for having eaten ice-cream.  I’ll also feel guilty onto top of anxious, because I’ve eaten food with meaningless calories.  I’ll have eaten it for no benefit. It’ll just be (fat) gain.

Well, what will make you feel better and less stressed?

Taking 15 minutes to meditate when I get back home

… And, it worked!  I got home, dumped the bags on the counter and before I even unpacked anything, I sat out on the balcony (it was a beautiful, still, balmy night), put in my earphones and played my favourite meditation tracks (5 minute mindfulness followed by a 10 minute progressive relaxation).  15 minutes later, I felt calmer and more settled.

I was ready to tackle dinner, and lunch and everything else I had to do. 

And I didn’t eat any of that ice-cream! 

All the tubs are still sitting in my freezer, ready for when I am ready to eat one because I’ve budgeted it into my daily calories.  Not because “I want something to make me feel better”.

And I’m going to remind myself of that each time I open the freezer looking for food:  Do you really want that, or do you just want something to make you feel better?

Monday, 26 August 2013

It’s so close I can smell it… or is that just my feet?

Last week I didn’t lose any weight.  I stayed at exactly the same weight.  And I was fine in that, for the reasons mentioned in that post.  I did point out however, that I was going to tackle the week in exactly the same way I have been approaching this whole Mid-Year’s Resolution’ and that I was going to weigh and log everything.

And that’s what I did, even though I had a ‘hungry’ week.  Throughout most of the week I ate more than I should have.  I constantly felt that I wanted something to eat.  Most of the time I wasn’t hungry, I just wanted to eat.  I made sure I was drinking water, in case I was mistaking ‘needing to eat’ with ‘needing hydration’, but, whatever, I ate more on most days.

However, I stuck true to my plan and I weighed and logged everything.  I did.  Hence, why I know most days I went over my calorie limit.

Did it make a difference?  Well… yes it did...

So… I’ve lost some more weight.  Granted, only another 500g (1lb), but given how much more I ate in the week, a loss is a loss.

So, yes, I’m so close to getting under 100 kgs, I am so excited, you cannot believe ! Or maybe you can, because you’ve been there too :D  Maybe you are nearing a milestone mark in health or fitness or weightloss and you’re feeling that beamy excitement that’s going to be in the forefront of your mind to keep you going. 

So technically my next weigh-in is in September, being next Monday, but I think if I make it under 100kg, I’ll claim it as an August victory.  After all, all the ground work happened in August.  And I don’t really feel the need/compulsion to hop on the scale on Friday to see if I made it.  Okay… maybe just a little.  But! If I hold out until Monday that means not only that

a)  I made it under 100kg in August but also
b)  I’m starting off my next month in a new decade

Both are wins as far as I am concerned. : )

P.S.  You can check out my table of progress so far on the Weigh-in page

Saturday, 24 August 2013

So, a Saturday reflection... ...noiƚɔɘlʇɘɿ yɒbɿuƚɒƧ ɒ , oƧ

Okay, so I know I just posted earlier, but this I felt was more relevant and to the now.

I was thinking about how I didn't lose weight last week, and thinking on what I've done this week for that.  I mentioned that I was going to do the exact same as I had been in the first place, weighing and logging everything.  Which I've done.

I've also eaten a bit more than my calorie limit on most days.  Sometimes only 50kCal over, sometimes as much as 400kCal.  I noticed that my eating has been more erratic this week and I've been reaching for the higher energy foods.  I think there were a few factors for this.

  1. Busy, busy week at work this week. We've all felt it.  Many of us had mid-project reports due in and the stress/tension was making us all go a little nutty.  We had a pretty explosive department meeting; Last minute changes to our programming that were not communicated; The bloke who works next to me teaching himself a new computer system; I myself on Friday went a little silly by 'mooing' at my co-workers (hands as horns and all :-D ).   The two women who sit behind me (our chairs back onto each other) ate an entire 800g bag of Minties in one morning.   They cracked it open at 8.30am and by 11am they were all gone.       O_O
  2. Long, long hours.  I've been waking up early in order to get into work and do stuff before most others arrive.  It becomes a noisy workspace when we're all in there in the half hour before we start our day.
  3. The weather turned.  We've been having unseasonably warm weather this winter.  Some Most days have been much more like late spring/early summer.  So this week when we got our normal late winter weather, it's been a surprise.  And maybe a bit of a shock to the system so the body is trying to compensate by consuming/craving more calories. 
  4. I think my body might have been trying to make up for the fact that I ate way under two days ago.  So, whilst last week I managed to not over eat to compensate, this week it seemed I did.
  5. I didn't do my grocery shopping on the weekend, so I didn't have much in the way of fruit, or salad ingredients, or even vegetables to steam.  I had enough food in the freezer that I had stuff to eat, but I portioned up those foods in such a manner that I would eat them alongside a salad or vegetables (lasagne for example.  Not enough on its own, but with vege - makes a meal!).  My lunches were pretty sorry for themselves.  
So... I ate more this week.  *sigh*

I'm pretty determined to not jump on the scale before Monday morning though.  I have always been pretty adamant that your body has too many fluctuations from day-to-day, hour-to-hour even, that it just doesn't make sense to weigh yourself every day.  I've never understood the appeal or motivation factor of daily weighings.  Of course what you put into your body certainly does leave an effect the next day (alcohol, I'm looking at you...) but really, it's that cumulative effect that I'm really going to notice.  Hence, the big drops for previous weeks.

It's Monday!

Man.... I need to work out a better system to updating. I really love sharing what I've done in my week, but I never seem to get it all down "on paper" in time Monday evening.   Hmmm.... anyway!

Surprise surprise, no weight change this week.

I weighed in at exactly the same weight as last week - 101.2kg (223.1lbs).

The surprise surprise was sarcastic by the way.  I was kind of expecting, after losing so much so quickly in the last few weeks, that there wouldn't be a big change this week.  On top of which, there were some days in the past two weeks where I was sick and I ate barely anything.  Sometimes, not even half the calories I was supposed to.  If that happens 4 days in a row, of course there is going to be a flow-on effect from that.  I doubt my body "went into starvation mode", but it certainly wouldn't have metabolised as efficiently as it should have in the days following.  So, no loss this week.

At this stage, I'm not panicking.  If in another week I'm the same again, well, then I'll consider what I need to look at.

I think this week, I'll continue to eat as I have been, weighing and logging everything.  I've been making use of the recipe tab on MFP (myfitnesspal) as much as possible when I've been cooking.  The only downside is working out how many 'servings' I've made.  For some foods it has been easy, because I have been able to portion the food up straightaway, and weighed each one to get an average.  Other food has proven more difficult, for example the pesto salad I made myself for lunch today.

I made the pesto myself.  It was my first time ever trying to make it - just chucked everything into the food processor - whee! - and hey presto; pesto! (I love puns!) and then I cooked up some pasta and used some tomatoes and tuna to make a pesto salad.  It was definitely yummy!!  Yesterday I ate only 100g of it, as a taster, today I had 300g for lunch.  Easy enough to average those two amounts out over the last two days. But this amount you see here, it's 470g and I haven't worked out if this is a whole portion, or half a portion or even if I am going to split into 3 amounts.  Very frustrating

Aaaaaand, I'm going to leave this post here, and continue my thoughts in a follow-up post later today.  It makes more sense as I'll be writing it from Saturday's perspective, not Monday evening's.  

Tuesday, 13 August 2013

Measurement Monday - Round 2

Urgh! I always plan to get online more frequently and to blog more, but it never seems to happen.  It takes me long enough to just log in my food to MFP.  I get so distracted by other webpages or TV that I don't seem to ever complete any writing.  :-S  So, I did actually take my measurements Monday and I didn't get around to posting them.  Oops

Anyhow, I've been logging some more this week.  Admittedly, my eating's been really poor in the last 7 days.  Thursday/Friday I was home sick from work.  Barely ate either day.  Saturday and Sunday were similar.  It's only today that I've started to eat "normally" again - still not great, but better than I was.

Start:               107.6 kg
Last week:        103.0kg
Current:         101.2kg
Weekly change:      -1.8kg
Total Loss:           6.4kg

As a result, I have lost weight since last week.  Not entirely sure how accurate it is.  Well, of course, it accurately reflects that I didn't eat for 4 days, but it doesn't really reflect my focus on good eating choices and watching what I eat.  It's a much bigger result than I was thinking.  Hopefully I can take something away from this week and concentrate on not overeating.  I don't want to compensate for the four days of not eating by eating too much this week.  I'm going to stick to my target as closely as I can and hopefully not such a drastic drop next week.  I'm definitely happy to lose weight at a slow pace, but a steady downwards trend.

At this point in time, I'm starting to feel that I am losing weight too quickly.  I only want? expected? to lose somewhere between 0.5-1kg per week.  (1-2.5 lbs).  In seven weeks, I've lost 6.4kg (14 lbs).  AND.... I'm an idiot.  I've just worked out the maths (my breain is so not switched on today).  If I average out my loss across the seven weeks since I started, I'm actually doing okay. 0.9kg/wk average or 2lb/week. Carry on...

Oh. My. Word.

I now weigh less than I did when I started at my new job at the start of the year.

I've only just worked that out as I am writing this post. Flicking back through my diary, I noticed I entered in my weight in January the day before my first day. I now weigh under that. That is completely unbelievable to me. I was 103.9kg that day (229lbs). (The week before was 104.1kg, so very much the same)(229.5lbs). And now I'm at least 1.5kg lighter than that (3.3lbs). Un-frelling-believable.

Originally when I started today's post, I was thinking I might reach under 100kg (220.5lbs) by the end of the month. Now, I'm wondering if I'm going to end up at my "starting weight" of 97kg (214 lbs). That's how much I weighed when I first started the blog, way back in April 2012. It's what inspired the orginal name, 27 Years Old and 27 Kilos Too Heavy.

Look, I'm not going to push for 97 kilos, but I definitely think I will be under 100. In only two weeks left (of August weigh-ins anyway), it's pretty unlikely to be 97kg. But I'll definitely be expecting less than 100 kg.


Tuesday, 6 August 2013

Measurement Monday - Round 1

Okay, moment of truth time.

How has the last five six weeks of getting 'reserious' about my weightloss efforts gone?

On June 24th, I reached a new point, where I decided once again, to make a difference in the way I feel and the way I look. 
I weighed in at 107.6 kgs.  (237 lbs)  There on in, I started to be super careful with logging everything I was consuming.  I logged eveerything using MyFitnessPal and I was aiming for 1610 Cal a day.  I bought a notebook to write everything down and I used a digital food scale to measure everything.  I even took my digital food scale with me when I visited family for the week!  In that week, I didn't quite stay in my calorie limit, but across the week, I believe it averaged out that I was just under. 

The following Monday morning, back at home, I weighed myself and the scale flashed up 105.2kg (231lbs). 
Really?  Wow, I wasn't expecting that.   Did I really lose weight already? After just one week of trying to stick to a lower calorie level? Nah... Couldn't have!  In this week, I was much more careful about sticking to my calorie limit and I also managed to do some exercise - trying out the Couch to 5K program.

Monday 8th July, next weigh-in.  103.5kg (227.7lbs).  O_O     Hmmm... Okay, perhaps this lower calorie limit has some merit to it afterall.  This week I wasn't as careful with meal planning and logging.  I let myself get tired and hungry and then when I got home, I didn't make good food choices.  Or I picked up some fast food on the way home.  I didn't properly plan meals, lunch was a lazy affair, breakfast was skipped.  It was not good.  The next week followed much the same pattern. 

And it showed. 15th July I weighed in at 104.0kg (229lbs).  I didn't do any exercise in this week either and I had some sick days from work.  By 22 July I was sitting on 104.9kg again (231.2lbs).  

But, of course, on the 21 July I watched the Fat and Back documentary and it reinforced for me just how hard this journey is (urgh! what a cliché) and how easy it is to fall into bad habits that will not help me in my efforts to get healthy again.  

Started tracking & logging diligently again.  I've noticed that my tracking is becoming faster as I re-use many of the same foods in the database.  I'm only using the webversion, so there's no scanning of barcodes.  I just have to look everything up.  But stuff like steamed veges are usually floating around in the first three pages of recent food because I eat the same type of veges often.  And I'm getting better with portioning my food straight away, weighing those portions and putting it into the freezer straight away.  And I don't need to weigh everything out each time anymore.  My coffee for instance, I made & weighed enough times that I have a standard formula now of coffee:sugar:water:milk.  The milk varies slightly (±10ml), but I'm not quibbling over it, because a) long term I feel those wobbles balance out, and b) nearly half the time I make myself a coffee, I never finish it. 

Now, completely by accident I forgot to weigh-in last Monday.  I was really excited and looking forward to it too, because I'd just finished a week of careful tracking again.  I only remembered once I was halfway through breakfast.  I was going to weighin the next day, but I forgot then too, and by Wednesday I felt it wasn't going to be an accurate picture of the week. 

So I left it to this morning.

I weighed in at 103.0kg (226.6lbs). 

Woohoo, I think I'm losing weight. :) Finally. After 15 months of this blog and not really getting anywhere or doing anything. This calorie counting thing seems to be the way to go. I've lost this weight just by weighing and logging food. I've not done any real meaningful exercise in the past four weeks either. Just one walk of 40 minutes. It seems it's going to be possible and I can do this. I can lose weight and get healthy.

Excellent! :)

Saturday, 27 July 2013

Fat and Back: A Follow Up

I was orignally going to just respond to Marion's comment, but I decided to extend things into a full post.

Basically, I was excited that Marion found my post interesting, because I love to read what she writes, so it was nice to think I could show her something new :)

I also felt that I just didn't do the doco enough justice. For starters, in explaining PJ's story, especially as he was gaining weight; and also the impact it had on me. I think the effect of what I saw is going to stick with me for a long while.

I really wish I could link to full documentary, because it was fascinating watching, and as I mentioned last week, scary and confronting. Really put a mirror up to me (and my mind) and gave me a reality dose. A mental Gibbs' slap if you will.

However, because there doesn't seem to be the full documentary online anywhere, I have tracked down some youtube clips that cover some of what I talking about last week. 

For starters, this youtube clip from the documentary's website is a pretty good summary of the entire doco.

Oh! And this one!!  Here you see one of the diary entries where he was not happy with himself.

Additionally, these are some further youtube clips for him that I think covered pretty well what was happening in the 'gaining' phase of his experiment.  <-- The Morning Show (AUS)    <--  Good Morning America (USA)
And a 3 part series for the same TV program here in Australia.  I couldn't track down if there was a fourth part...

By this video, I guess all the information is starting to be repetitive, but there may still be something interesting you may get out of it, especially for American readers.

Overall, I'd have to say, I found that first part of the documentary the most fascinating.  To see how his mindset to food completely changed.  How much he found food to be a comfort.  And food was the biggest factor for him in his life.  Those first two videos really cover what this documentary meant to me. 

It was just such a shock to see this fit, healthy guy, whose life is all about being fit and in great shape, go from that, to a blob, so quickly.  And that he had those same characteristics of overweight people - lethargy, curve in the lower back from all the weight he was carrying, the "Oh sure, I'll just a eat a little of that".  He underwent the same feelings and mental stuff that I do.  I don't think it matters that he only did this in 6 months, while I've gained over 6 years.  The point is those mind games your body does with food are real.  He was still picking up that mentality and food addiction of someone who eats too much.

I am really glad that I watched that documentary.  It was sheer luck I found it, because I was channel surfing and it's on a station I don't normally watch.  

So lesson learned from the doco?  Bad food habits are easy to make and hard to break.  But they are not unbreakable.  I can do this well if I start slow but stay strong and stay comitted. 

I mentioned last week that I stopped being as diligent as I should be with the food journaling.  So all this past week I've started journaling & weighing everything again.  And yes, honestly I've eaten some foods that I probably shouldn't have and I have not been under my calorie goal for every day, but I'm confident that I have been a heck of a lot closer to my calorie goal across the week than I was in the last two weeks.

Monday is my next weigh-in morning. If I can find where I put my tape measure, I will take some measurements too. Maybe even create a measurements page. This Monday marks 5 weeks that I've started to relook at my efforts. 3 weeks of good eating mixed with 2 weeks of poor. We'll see what happens and let the results speak for themselves.

Sunday, 21 July 2013

Fat and Back

I am in the process of watching a documentary on T.V., as I write this so this post will be a little bit disjointed.

The doco I’m watching is called“Fat and Back”. It is both fascinating and terrifying. It’s an Australian documentary focusing on PJ, a personal trainer, who decided that for the space of one year, he was going to gain 50% of body weight and lose it again.

A personal trainer, PJ, made the comment that one of his overweight (obese) clients had cancelled for the third time in a row and it made him annoyed that the client was “giving up”. PJ rang him and said, “just follow what I say for 3 months and after that you’ll see how easy it is.” The client replied with “live like I do for 6 months and then you’ll see how hard it is.”

That was the starting point.

From the first of January PJ made the journey to go from 80 kilos to 120 kilos. He did this by stopping exercise and by eating junk foods. It was surprising to see how quickly he turned to food. He was noticing that because he wasn’t getting the energy burst that he used to from exercise, he was relying on food. When he did his grocery shop, he made the commentary “oh, see, they put this food and the end of the aisles to get you sucked in … and it works” (he grabbed one for his trolley). He also saw chocolate bars on special “oh I don’t really need them … oh, maybe just one”. It was that easy. He just kept picking up the food and putting it in the trolley

It was especially strange/scary to see how easily he forgot how much food he was eating. He went through a Hungry Jacks drive-thru and as he was there, ordering his food, he kept adding“just one more,” and “oh, I more thing”. When he got home and was talking to the camera, he tipped his chips (fries) out onto the table to eat them, when one of his mates (filming) pointed out they weren’t his chips. It took a while for PJ to believe him, because he had completely forgotten that he had eaten his in the car. That was scary to watch him realise that he had no recollection of having already eaten.

The doctors/nutritionists/psychologists that were part of the doco also mentioned things like this. That when obese people recount what they've eaten, they appear to have eaten less than fit/healthy people. But when it came down to it, obese people didn't even realise sometimes when they were eating.

By April he’d gained 28 kilos. And he was struggling. He was depressed and unhappy with himself. He pointed out that his arms were coming up in bumps – the toxins from the food he said. Like tiny pimples. I get them too and never realised that there was a connection to what I was eating. PJ also brought up how one night he went to bed, and without anything seeming to trigger it, he felt his entire left side go numb. He freaked out, thought that maybe he was having a stroke. He was even contemplating calling his doctors to find out what was wrong. When he did get up, he noticed it was better, he was okay, but, the thing he went to was more food, jelly snakes. He even wondered if they might have been the cause of the incident because he’d had some earlier in the evening, but then changed his mind after he ate some more.

He got to the point where he had reached his target goal of 120kg. But he couldn’t handle it. The pressure he felt at what he was doing, and how awful he felt was so much that he became reclusive and wasn’t leaving the house or answering the phone. He ended up going overseas for a couple of weeks, just to get away. And he pointed out on the camera diary, that that was it. He’d had enough.

I’m going to try to not write a whole review of the doco (it’s finished now – I’m a terribly slow typer!) but the reason I wanted to write about it was because it shocked me just how similar what he was going through as he was gaining the weight is how similar I feel now, at this weight.

His next 6 months involved him getting fit again and taking on an overweight client to motivate and lose weight at the same time. That started off okay, but by the end, she wasn’t someone he could help. She stopped coming & didn’t have the commitment. She also felt that he wasn’t the right person to motivate her because she felt that even though he had gained all this weight, he still didn’t get what it was like to be a fat person. To be someone who has always been fat and has felt the mental struggle with overcoming that.

She also felt that he was more interested in the doco than helping her, which I felt was unfair, and maybe only slightly true, given that we didn’t see how he was with other clients.

In the end, PJ did get back down to the weight he was at the start of the year. But it was a struggle for him. On the very first day he was to change (1st July), he “eased back” into exercising. After just two minutes on a treadmill, he was puffed. He struggled to sit up after being on a weight bench. PJ mentioned he actually felt like some junk food. Right there, he wanted to stop training, just to go get some junk food. Later that day he was caught trying to sneak some pizza. This was after having two meat pies for lunch. That just goes to show how easy it is to get into a food addiction and just how hard it is to switch off. This is a guy who is a personal trainer, who has won some titles and photo shoots for being “Mr Fitness Muscles” (or whatever those titles are). His life revolves are fitness and eating well. In 6 months, he has picked up so many bad habits, he couldn’t just bounce back into it like he thought. And that scared him.

What was also scary was his weigh-ins. He wasn’t finding out the results. I think part of the deal was he had to ‘wait and see’ in December what he would be. PJ just guessed based on how his body felt and how he could see how his body looked. His guesses of where he was at, were nearly all 3-5 kilos lowerthan what he weighed in at. He honestly thought losing the weight would come quickly and easily once he got back into routine. It took him nearly 12 weeks to lose 10 kilos. Granted, towards the end as he got fitter, he was losing more because of course he had more energy to keep exercising. A self-fulfilling cycle. But the very beginning was a terrible shock for him.

I found this doco confronting. It shocked, saddened, upset and terrified me as he was going through the putting on weight phase. The physical and mental issues that he was dealing with were way too familiar and hit too close to home. It was awful to realise what I am doing to myself. It was upsetting to see played out on the screen in front of me, just what I had done to myself over the past 5 years. How easy it is to fall into those mind traps of “this food can’t have that much calories, surely” and so on.

This just serves to reinforce how much further I have to go and how much more work I need to do mentally.

Four weeks ago I started tracking diligently what I was eating. Two weeks ago I stopped being so diligent and started being careless and sloppy. Tomorrow is my weigh-in day.

Let the results speak for themselves.


Friday, 5 July 2013


One of the reasons I am keen to get started again is all because of an event I did a few weeks ago. 

On the 16th of June, I was part of an inaugural funrun in Brisbane, called City2South.  It was a 14km race which could be run or walked or wheel-chaired.  It was 14km of pain!  Haha, not really, but it was long!!  The course started from the city CBD, wend itself around the river, through the university, to finish in a park on the other side of the river.  The early morning stillness and quiet was wonderful!  The hill that went from 12-13th kilometre was not wonderful.  The karaoke station in which the sponsoring bank would donate $50 for every person that sang was great fun!  (Crocodile Rock).  :D

Actually, yes, I was in pain by the end of it.  My new shoes (which I had bought 2 ½ weeks prior and thought I had already broken in enough) gave me blisters.  Only on the one foot, but man, did that make the last 4km or so slow going!  It was right on the ball of my foot, so that meant I was walking quite wobbly for a bit!

I saw a link for it on a news website back in March and I decided it was a great way to get myself motivated and kickstarted to get myself fit again.  I even convinced a friend to enter it with me. J  She’s gotten very focused on her health lately and has lost some weight in the process.  She’s stopped eating the foods that were making her sick, and has really upped her running.  She’s big into running now, which she enjoyed when she was in high school.  I didn’t know her then, so it’s so cool seeing her get into it.  J  Anyhow, she’s one of my motivator buddies here.  Because I know she’s taking better care of her health, and lost some weight in the process, as well as juggling work and family, it makes me feel I can too.

So, we signed up!  I had to keep emphasising to her that I wouldn’t be able to run it, but I think we kept up a pretty good pace.  Especially in the beginning.  We were dodging crowds for the first 5km or so as we were powering through.  At about the 8km mark however we slowed right down.  And that was because of me.  I hadn’t gotten in as much preparation as I had wanted and the longest distance I had covered in the lead up had been 8km.  My legs, back and FEET! were aching.  I had to keep stopping to stretch my feet.  And then of course, I worked out further along that I was getting a blister.  But I didn’t want to stop.

I had two goals while completing this race:

1.       I didn’t want to be the last one crossing over the finish line.  I knew I was going to be slow, especially after that halfway mark.  I was very conscious of the fact that I am overweight, and finishing last and slow was just going to draw unwanted attention to myself.  I didn’t want that.

2.       I wanted to finish within the allotted cut-off times.  There were three points along the course where the organisers were watching for the stragglers.  If you were late for the cut-off point, then you would have to forfeit the rest of the course and make your way straight to the finishing point.  I didn’t want that.  If there was going to be anything more humiliating than finishing last, it was not getting to finish at all.

Luckily for me, I didn’t let my friend down, nor me.  I do think my friend was a little frustrated with me and how slow I was by the end, but she kept shrugging it off.  She’s a runner, so I guess she’s more used to the longer distances.

But, how’d I do?  I think I did okay J

75th last – woohoo!

Thursday, 4 July 2013

Mid-Year's Resolutions

Oh-No! I found this post lurking in my drafts folder. Please pretend it went up on Monday 1st July like it was supposed to! Then there will be another post following...

Okay, so, once again, I stopped blogging for a little while. Okay, a long while. And during the last five months, when I haven’t been blogging, I haven’t been as motivated to get fit & healthy as I could have been. Work here has been a lot busier than I expected it to be. Life too, I guess. And that has meant that I haven't been taking care of myself as much. But, I think I'm starting to get a better hang of my life here and my routines. Balancing out work commitments, life commitments, friend commitments and family commitments. It's been tough, but something I am starting to be better able to do.

The knowledge that I am unfit and unhappy has been on my mind this whole time. I hate being fat and overweight, not fitting into my clothes, people seeing old photos of me and going 'Is that Kathleen?! But she was so skinny!' *sigh*I hate it.

So, I trying, once again, to do something about it.

I’ve kept up with dancing, but I had to cut it back to only 2 hours a week. Tuesdays & Thursdays. And even then, I haven’t been able to go each time because of work commitments. But I’ve been very glad of it, I missed dancing when I lived back in my old town, so I’m certainly making the most of the opportunity I have here. Unfortunately, that has meant I’ve also taken opportunity of the takeaways and convenience foods not 10m from my doorstep, and haven’t been eating well.

But I realise that, and I guess, as long as I do realise that, there’s always time to start over again, right?

And what better time than the start of the month? Especially when it starts on a Monday? In the middle of the year? That’s why I’m calling this my mid-year resolution!  Cheesy, I know. :-S

Now, what exactly are my mid-year's resolutions? Funnily enough, not too different from my New Year’s resolutions.

· Consistently complete a food journal – including calorie counts.

· Attend dance lessons twice a week

· Walk to work at least once a week

· Lose 20 kgs by the end of the year

· Maintain work-life balance
I’ve already started to make progress on these.