First off I want to apologise and thank people for yesterday.
I want to offer an apology for those of you who felt upset or hurt by my comments in yesterday's post. I know some of you will have parents who are ill. Or who have parents who have already passed. And there I am whinging like an immature brat about having to spend time with my mum. That's not fair for you to bear the brunt of my anger, when you will obviously have different feelings on the subject. I 'm sorry. I know that whatever I say, will in no way make it better for you, but I am sorry.
For those that left comments on yesterday's post, thank-you. I didn't actually post it expecting sympathy. I was more prepared for the "Get over yourself" type comments, which quite frankly, I deserve. I openly acknowledge I am not a nice person. But thanks to everyone who read; and read and took the time to comment. You didn't have to, but you did. And I appreciate it.
To close up, I do think yesterday was beneficial in a way. Almost as soon as I wrote the post, I was beginning to calm down, and feel less anxious and stressed and angry. I ate my dinner, made a cup of tea, and then watched Disney movies on the couch until I fell asleep. It seems to have helped, because I woke up today feel somewhat more positive and pro-active. And I got stuff done today, stuff that I wanted/needed to do, like the car insurance, laptop dropped off for repair, and am closer to making a decision about a phone, multifunction cooker & upright freezer. Five big, time consuming things and I managed to start to get it done. Early tomorrow I'm going to call up and organise the car servicing and buy the multi function cooker and upright freezer. The place is just down the road from me, so hopefully delivery will be able to be organised quickly.
In light of all that was going on in my head yesterday and today, I decided to check out my horoscope this morning.
I love the vagueness of horoscopes don't you? I read this one as relevant, given my rant yesterday.
Monday, Sep 29, 2014 -- Although you are eager to
change the dynamics between you and others today, it's challenging to
regain normalcy once the energy begins to shift. There could be a lot at
stake in a relationship now, but don't try to force your will on anyone
else. The more you attempt to control the outcome, the more distant you
grow from your goals. Express your passions and remain open to the many
So, I just need to breathe out and let it go. Accept there are things out of my control. Get over myself and let myself take care of my mum. And not let it take me from my goals.
I'm off to mum's tomorrow, for the next two days, then I get Friday and the weekend before I'm back at work.
I can use the weekend to finalise my time budget plan thing. I'm having trouble manipulating excel to come up the layout I want. Every time I think I have set the cells to the size I want, when I do a test print, they end up smaller. I have a particular size in mind, so I can write necessary details in them. Oh! And they keep running over to 2nd/3rd page, even though, by my calculations, (working in metric measurement units) they should fit onto the page size I want, even with a margin allowance for printing. Grrr. But I'll get there. I need to by Monday anyway, because that's when my work week starts.
Aaaaand... given I still have about an hour before I need to be in bed, I'm going to use my remaining time to go work on that.
Once again, I'm sorry to everyone for yesterday's post and I thank-you for your comments.